The end of this year has brought some big changes in my family. It turns out my children, especially my daughters, need me to be way more present than I have been. I’ve done my best to be a good parent.. never late for pick up, we go to fun activities in the afternoon, and I’m home most of the time.
But that hasn’t cut it. And for that I am sorry.
There are a lot of pressures on kids these days, on parents, on everyone. Its not easy growing up and its not easy being a parent. We are learning together.
To my girls:
Dear Hannah and Noelle,
You are both a blessing to me. Your light and presence defines my life. And never lose the closeness you share. Its special and its rare and its something you can count on for the rest of your lives together. I marvel at your relationship. And while you will always be “my girls”, I also recognize the differences and the needs of both of you individually.
Hannah, you are stronger than you know. You have a wide open heart that takes in everything. Your intelligence and drive continually surprise me. You are only 10. That is a young, sweetness. You have a whole life of pink moments that will include love, friendships you cannot imagine now, first kisses, loving to learn, new places, magic and a rainbow or two. I couldn’t be more proud of who you are and how you are growing up. You exceed any expectation I have for you. And remember always that everything you desire, everything you need, you can find within yourself. You are more than good enough for me. And I promise to snuggle you always, put you first, and put down that annoying phone after 2 p.m. every day.
Noelle, you and your Snoopy dance. Your lightheartedness, your pure joy is nothing but a pure blessing to all who know you. .. but especially to your family. The depth of your loyalty to Hannah and your deep bond to her is a constant inspiration to me who grew up without a sister. I love how you laugh and cause others to laugh alongside you. But I see beneath that to your deeper levels and know your strength and intelligence. You are smarter than you give yourself credit for and one of the strongest people I know. Remember when you broke your arm? And I couldn’t be there because I was upstairs at the hospital with complications after just having given birth to your brother that day? You. Are. A. Powerhouse. I look forward to our daily walks and runs and promise to always have time for you and only you. Love your mama.
I broke rules with this post. These photos were not taken in a single day. But it tells our story as it is today. Hurt but not broken, love filled, and perfectly imperfect.
1. unplug everyone more
2. im unplugged after 2 pm everyday
3. be kinder than necessary
Head over to the amazing Gretchen Davis to see her take on the 10 on 10 for January.